Oh Thanksgiving

What a weekend it has been, a good one at that. Nothing compares to the awkward moments that always occur at my family functions and Thanksgiving this year did not disappoint. Its sad that me and my cousins literally have nothing in common anymore, yeah we are all about the same age but we all lead very different lives, which leads to very dry table conversation. Oh well. Then yesterday I hung out with Kaitlin basically all day an took part in a will and Grace season 2 marathon, which is always fun. Which was followed by an increadible night spent with Kaitlin, Sara, Lorena, and Farrell. Seriously one of the best nights I have had in a long time. On a completely different note can you believe someone actually died on black Friday! gosh our country entertains me, I feel bad for the poor wal mart employee's whose last few moments of life were spent as just that... a wal mart employee. I felt like I had so much more to talk about but really I don't. Tragedy. I go to Denver on Thursday!! I am super stoked! and Christmas is fastly approaching. I better get a new TV or else!!

Oh the stress of life.

Today Is one of those days where I evaluated my current position in life and really really wished I had graduated early, but no, I am an idiot and allowed myself to be talked out of it by someone who is not even involved in my life anymore! I mean choir is great but lately it just seems like it has become one huge up hill battle, and its not even the choir's or the teacher's fault. It's all the little things that are totally out of our control that have just piled up! Now it has become a nauseous blur of pure stress that drives me absolutely mad. I really wish my parents weren't so damn involved with all of this, I think that would help. Choir used to be my safe haven from my family life and now 90% of my family drama is wrapped up in choir. Is it really worth all this stress!? I thought by this time in the year choir would have pulled itself together but every time it gets close another bomb goes off and I don't understand why. Can't anyone give Main Street a break this year.. apparently not.

On another/sort of the same note, I hung out with Amanda Patterson today. Gosh I envy her, I give her props for knowing when it was time to move on in her life and doing it, and not looking back with regret. Perhaps god has kept me behind for a reason... I really hope so.

I can't belive this

I am actually blogging... I hope i spelt that right!! I don't know why I am doing this, I don't expect anyone to read this.

Ugh life is so stressful, just when I thought it had finally reached a idk.. a point of getting better, it found a way to be thrown violently back in my face. Choir seriously has taken a good 3 years off my life this year its ridiculous, and I am starting to wonder if it is really worth the fight I have been putting up. I love it don't get me wrong but I am so tired of fighting for something that so many people want to see fail and something that so many people will refuse to fight for.

On a different note I saw twilight today and am now utterly inspired to become a vampire, or wright a novel that will start such a craze and make me tons of money, I haven't decided which path to go with. Oh I wish Edward was real.