Today Is one of those days where I evaluated my current position in life and really really wished I had graduated early, but no, I am an idiot and allowed myself to be talked out of it by someone who is not even involved in my life anymore! I mean choir is great but lately it just seems like it has become one huge up hill battle, and its not even the choir's or the teacher's fault. It's all the little things that are totally out of our control that have just piled up! Now it has become a nauseous blur of pure stress that drives me absolutely mad. I really wish my parents weren't so damn involved with all of this, I think that would help. Choir used to be my safe haven from my family life and now 90% of my family drama is wrapped up in choir. Is it really worth all this stress!? I thought by this time in the year choir would have pulled itself together but every time it gets close another bomb goes off and I don't understand why. Can't anyone give Main Street a break this year.. apparently not.
On another/sort of the same note, I hung out with Amanda Patterson today. Gosh I envy her, I give her props for knowing when it was time to move on in her life and doing it, and not looking back with regret. Perhaps god has kept me behind for a reason... I really hope so.
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